Sunday, November 27, 2011

stillness and why....???

Many a times there is no evidence to many things that are believed very strongly in our lives, sometimes its just our belief... a misconception...or a beautiful illusion....
This poem draws the helplessness of a person to find themselves... be who they are.... despite the way the world judges them.... more so about the evidences of being good doing good and questioned for being so....
here is how i wanna convey it...

"Soaring my tears in the darkness of woe,
sometimes wished if only i could show..
this world that i'm not alone
nor am i a loser anymore....

I treasure a beautiful self intact
that lives, loves and wants to enact...
feel free, happy and united with all,
dwelling towards the soul of universe befall.

yet my loneliness feels so sure
sweeps away my happiness into no more.
Strolling against those odds and twilight...
to ignite my happiness's lore.

never have i given up, nor
will times claim it from me,
to live the way i want to be...
minus those t ears, fears and queries lying morose in me.

even wondered, if i have lived a strong life
facing all odds like the Joan Of Arch.
not easy to smile at odds so harsh,
beautifying the wounded and put life in them...

just that they don't leave any trace
nor written or remembered in this race....
have to track back those smiles in the air
to get an answer of what's left behind in them....."

- Kirthi Kakade

Saturday, November 26, 2011

to tassu...

I know this my first blog.. and what's better than dedicating it to my friend tassu... i dont know how she is where she is.. whats happening in her life.. absolutely clueless regarding her... when in college... our last day she came up to me and wrote this on a small piece of paper....and that look in her eyes... like she'd never get to be with me.. a departed glance she threw on me....
it just meant and described the person she is and what she wanted to be....
there was no need for me to ask her any question after that...i just read it.. smiled.. and kept it safely for 3 yrs nor now....
this is what tassu had written....

"The stronger the winds of desire, the faster the heart....
y set my wings on fire...
Silently and lonely i stand ... watching dreams blazing on a pyre...
The anguish and pain of my eyes is seen with the flames...
The flames that scream.. of freedom...and peace of my mind and my heart..That i have always longed for....
the flame douses and the flame rouses... as if they play a game with my life of roses..
So there aint nything i want.. there aint anything i wanna let go...
I JUST WANNA BE ME WHERE EVER I SHALL BE..... " from tassu...

I dont know.. how much has life let her be herself.... last thing i know about her is that she's born a li'l angel and that , she's left with putting everything and everybody before she even thinks of considering herself....
sometimes i wonder.... if the joy of giving is masked by sacrifice.. or is it only a fit of duty imbibed....